There is a great story about my subway ride today, which hopefully I will write and post later. My friend Bud. basically stopped blogging for a few weeks during which I’m guessing he was gathering himself for the coming storm. My nephew Sean Patrick is preparing himself for largely the same thing.

What the hell are we supposed to do? In my mind, this presidency has gone from one that supported things I don’t and pursued paths I wouldn’t, to a group of people who are hell-bent on destroying the ideals that our nation was founded on. I’m not hyperbolizing, look at the list…

Stolen election. Granting Haliburton contracts to rebuild Iraq before the war started. Scalia duck hunting with Cheney (which when taken with their claim about Rice’s testimony being an infringement of the separation of powers particularly ironic.) Lying to the American people about WMD in Iraq. Huge recess appointments of far right wing justices. Constitutional ban on gay marriage. Blacks being barred from voting in Florida, protestors being denied access to those in power… They are systematically taking apart the aspects of America that are most American.

That is in addition to the normal Republican things that trigger me, plus a littany of particularly Bush-ist problems. Prioritizing Star Wars missile defense. Lies about Uranium in Niger going to Iraq. Massive terrorist attacks in Europe as a direct retaliation of the war in Iraq, more people killed by Al Qaeda since September 11th than in the eight years Clinton was in office… Every day there is something else. School was cancelled in Boston so Bush could have a fundraiser there… and yet…

And yet… None of this matters. It occured to me today that Kerry’s just, y’know, nothing. He got the nomination because the Democrats want to win, and even a bad actor can tell you, if you have the wrong intention, you aren’t going to do a good job. He is a follower, and most of the time he doesn’t even know what he’s following.

I’m gonna vote against Bush, and when I pull the lever or push the punch card, I’m gonna do it *really* hard. But it won’t matter. I was never gonna vote for Bush. However, if McCain were running against Kerry, I might vote Republican.

This election is the Democrats’ to loose. And they are going to. No-one has any reason to vote for Kerry.

God, I hope I’m wrong.