Re-Boot
Posted February 5th, 2009 by Sean WilliamsI haven’t written in this blog for a long time, and although it would be best to avoid explanations, I think the fact that I’ve avoided writing about writing is the reason this place froze up.
It’s possible for some people at some points in their lives to point to a transitional moment and say, “that was the day that everything changed”. I certainly can do that, there was an interesting moment one day in the middle of my tenth grade when I got beat up badly enough to end up in the hospital, and responded by borrowing a tux and showing up at a formal dance with my face covered in stitches, and I would say that moment was a turning point in my life…
BUT. Most of the time, transitions happen slowly, your life spinning like a wet mug on a potter’s wheel. You don’t know what you’ve become until you’re pretty close to becoming it, and that’s kinda what’s been happening to me.
My artistic and professional lives have fallen completely off the rails. My passions are the same as they were four years ago, but my capacity to rally both myself and the troops has evaporated. It’s an interesting moment for me artistically, just as my internal mechanism for knowing what I like has become more refined and articulate, I’ve lost the clear path to production that I once had.
This is a good thing, I think. I pushed really hard for a couple of ideas that I’m not sure, in retrospect, that I totally understood. Right now, I am going through a Great Pause, a sort of inhalation, and I’m pretty sure that’s good. I’ve talked a lot over the years, and I’ve made a fool out of myself roughly twice as often as I’ve been either entertaining or insightful, so my silence is more than just a welcome recess for my friends and colleagues. It has to have been good for me.
What I’ve decided to do with this blog is to focus on two aspects of my life, and leave the rest to better informed and more entertaining people. I’m gonna do what I can to talk about the theater, and I hope to see more and to be involved in production more so that I can put my money where my mouth is, so to speak.
The other thing I’m gonna embrace a little more is the Daddy-n-Me aspect of this blog. I’m a full-time dad, and I don’t know how much longer I’ll be that. So, I’m gonna focus on telling the story as it’s happening, and hopefully that’ll help me figure out what I’m doing.
I’m sure this particular post will fall on deaf ears for a number of reasons. Nobody likes reading a post about writing posts, and also, I haven’t written in forever and I’m pretty sure everyone’s forgotten. Which is probably good, it’s gonna take me a while to get back in the saddle.
I’m not gonna talk about politics, unless it relates to theater. I’m not gonna talk about anything unless it relates to parenthood or art.